There is a Light

There is a light, in your eyes.

I used to feel that light in my eyes, in everything that I did, that I was. Hoping to reflect that light onto others. In searching for something new and exciting, I lost that light. I wanted so badly to find myself. Instead I lost myself. I think of all the times I have been led astray, when that light faded to almost none existent, when the pain in my heart felt all consuming, Love brought me back into the light. Funny how that works, Love is usually the culprit of my pain, the reason for losing my light. Without love we don’t really have much emotional pain do we? Love is a very big word, yes its only four letters, but that word is felt world wide, it breaks us, it blinds us, it heals us, it makes us do horrible things, and it inspires us to do great things. It holds us together.

In loves blindness I lost that light in my eyes.

“Breathe in, breathe out,
Move on and break down,
If everyone goes away i will stay.”

Love will stay.

And I will find a new light. A better light.

 

 

Broken Arrows

I think I will start beginning my day with Broken Arrows by Avicii! The lyrics are so powerful, and moving. I always feel better after I hear this song. I feel hope in my heart. I think that would be one of the main messages in this song. Learning to have hope, can be so comforting in the most trying of times.

You sometimes give all of yourself. “You strip your love down to the wire.”ย Sometimes you get love in return, and sometimes you don’t. Does that mean you stop giving? There is always a bigger picture to love that we often don’t see, until later in life. Love is unexplainable at times, and there is no science to it, you can’t break it down, you can’t dissect it. You just accept it.

You tear down the walls in your heart, to find a place you call home.”

When you don’t open up your heart to whatever it’s feeling, your only hurting yourself. I avoided love for a long time, I was terrified of it. Love is a perfect example of adventuring into the unknown. I once avoided the unknown, something new just had to be a bad thing. When we go through hard times, we do whatever we can to avoid those situations from happening again. That very so often leads to irrational thinking! Which brings me back to the whole idea around how powerful our thoughts are, what we think is what we get. RATIONALIZE YOUR THOUGHTS. Irrational thinking got me no where, I missed out on love, and a lot of other things because of it. I’m sure you can think of things you missed out on because of irrational thinking.

“It’s not too late, its not too late, I see the hope in your heart. Sometimes you lose and sometimes your shooting broken arrows in the dark. But I see the hope in your heart.”

Shooting broken arrows in the dark. What does that mean to you? What are your broken arrows? How did those broken arrows change your life, and who you are today? For me those broken arrows are the times that I let fear, and irrational thinking take over. That would be shooting broken arrows into the dark. Only giving a small part of you, those arrows are staying in the darkness. Give your all, and they will make it out of the darkness, and into the light, to create something beautiful. Maybe a great love, a magical, unpredictable, whole-hearted love. It could be anything really, shooting broken arrows applies to anything you do in life.

They also represent the hurt in my heart. When I did give my all, I let love in, only to have my heart broken, over, and over again. ย Everyone knows how it feels to have your heart broken, by family, friends, your significant other, death, the list goes on and on. It means you loved. and above all isn’t love what keeps this world spinning? Where would we be without love? I can not imagine a world without it. Something that forever will be unknown, and unexplainable. I met someone who lost his wife 18 or so years ago, he still loves her. I don’t think a day goes by that he doesn’t think about her. It was inspiring to talk with him about his journey with and without her. To endlessly love. Is that explainable? I don’t think so.

“Now as you wade through the shadows that live in your heart, you’ll find the light that leads home. Cause I see you for you, and your beautiful scars.”

Your scars are beautiful, they make you who you are. There is always a light to the darkness. The scars will always be there, they never go away. Learn from them, grow from them, look back and see why. Why did my dad choose alcohol over me? Why did I have to grow up in a broken home? why did I have to make grown up decisions when I was only a young girl? Why do I have to be the one to pick up the pieces? What are your whys? Just look back and answer them! It is crazy because there is always a reason!

1 Corinthians 10:13ย New International Version (NIV)

13ย No temptation[a] has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted[b] beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted,[c] he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.

In all the darkness, I was always gifted with that wonderful light at the end of the tunnel. I was blessed with a community full of love. I always, always found the light! I always had hope in my heart. You can spend your whole life living in the darkness, because you choose to. You are the only one in control of your happiness. You are the only one who can decide to get out of the darkness. You have to decide that life is beautiful, and that you are going to give it your all no matter what!

I see the hope in your heart.

Love,

Vicki โค

As you wait

As you wait

you are always listening

mostly for answers

signs to guide you

always seeking

always searching

why are you not learning?

why did you stop fighting?

why do you keep hiding?

you stopped deciding

you didn’t choose love

you chose hate

you lost hope

you let fear in

ย you can be fearless

adventure into the unknown

take the path less traveled

open your heart

let love in

let god in

find faith

bind it with all your heart

it’s your decision

it always has been

Image

Holding on to Hope

Once upon a time there was a young girl, with many dreams and a whole lot of hope. She watched a lot of Disney movies, and believed in fairy-tales. She would sing loudly in the streets with her best friends to Faith Hill and Carrie Underwood. ( she still does this ) As she grew older, her dreams slowly slipped away. Somehow hope stuck around, and with that, she was able to beat the odds. That little girl is me! 23 years of age, I have decided to dream again! ย With a new found inspiration, this blog is where I will begin.

A lot of my photos that I will be posting, or already have posted were captured by my best friend, who also happens to be a wonderful photographer… so you can check her out ———-> https://www.jozannatheolynn.com/ย  <——

And also photos by a good friend ——->ย RooRidesEastย <—–

What do you WANT?

A famous scene from “The Notebook”, we all know it, there are memes about it! Noah yelling at Ali ” WHAT DO YOU WANT?! ” It’s not that simple!” Her head and her heart were not aligned. ( The Head and the Heart <– really good band, check them out!!) A difficult connection sometimes! Knowing what we do not want, often comes easier than knowing what we actually want. Like Ali, we worry about what other people want for us, what other people will think of us, and a fear of failing to get what we want. Fear is the root of most failures, and turning our backs on our dreams seems a lot simpler..safer. With that mindset, we are failing before we even begin. I think we forget how powerful our thoughts really are! Our thoughts are the deciding factor of how our day, week, month, year, ect.. are going to go. So focusing on what we do not want, will not get us any closer to what we DO want. I recently came across this simple theory of what we think is what we get. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ioKU6Jue_k Sounds pretty crazy, but is it? Finding a way to shift your mindset from negative to positive will make all the difference to living a happy life. Find whatever it is that makes you happy, and channel that. For me it can be as simple as playing a certain song ( right now that would be -Something just like this by Coldplay & The Chainsmokersย https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FM7MFYoylVs) or thanking God for the good things I have. I realize that’s easier said than done sometimes- we all have crap, some of us hide it better than others, crap is always there! BUT we all have at least one good thing! So use that, channel that one good thing, and you will find your thoughts will shift from negative to positive ๐Ÿ™‚ Figure out what you want, and it will soon be what you have !